End of the first cycle

So the first cycle is over.

I feel.....

Well......

Not sure.

I'm so happy.  In fact, sometimes I feel guilty about how happy I am. This job was tailor-made for me. I have my administrative papers, but I'm not a principal.  I'm a coach.  I love working with others.  I' was a cheerleader for years in school, and I"m a cheerleader at heart.  Coaching allows for that professional collaboration, but, at the same time, it also provides that natural opportunity to celebrate!  Cheering on my fellow colleagues when they succeed gives me great pleasure.  Coaching one period a day for all these years has been very beneficial, but it was never enough.  I've been wanting to be a full-time tech coach for years, and I feel as though my pumpkin has finally turned into the most luxurious carriage I've ever seen, my glass slippers are sparkling under my magnificent gown, and my prince charming is gorgeous!

The job:  Oh, how I love this job!  I feel as though I am making such an impact.  The teachers are using technology like crazy.  They are fighting over who gets the Chromebooks and who gets me in their classroom!  Right now I'm working on blogging, video lessons, online classes, lab simulations, and so much more.  Today was a great day....one of the science co-teachers asked me to help her use an online lab simulator with her students, and today, she was thrilled to tell me how well it worked and how much her students learned from the simulation experience.  Win!  Score!  Even by biggest critic in the beginning of the year asked me for help.  They are coming along nicely.

Another thing I love is every day is a new day, a new challenge, a new experience.  Are you getting the idea that "new" is a recurring theme here?  I needed new. I love new.  I'm embracing new.  What's really great is the other teachers are embracing it as well.  I am overwhelmed with how much the teachers are enjoying this position as much as I am.  I get excited messages from teachers telling me they found a good app or they are using a new online program or they want to go to a conference.  I love the newly generated enthusiasm.  They hate when I am absent from school!  LOL  I love that as well.  We've set up some "cloning" features so no one really misses me that much.  They all text me, email me, hangout with me.....and if that doesn't work, they find one of my kids.....yes, I have little "me's" planted all over the school.....I tell the kids, "I'm not going to be in school tomorrow, check on Mrs. S., and make sure her. blah, blah blah is working."  The kids then check in with me on hangouts and it's all good!  Some of the teachers are getting really great at helping one another as well.....they still text me and ask, "Hey, is it OK if I help Mr. J. with using that new app you showed me?"  They are growing...becoming independent learners, facilitators, innovators.

That leads me to the next emotion:
I'm a little sad
i'm nervous about this project coming to an end. 
I'm worried the district will not pick this position up and let me continue my work.  I'm not sure I want to be cut loose from Google Education, Ed Tech, and Digital Promise.  I take all of this extremely seriously and I feel as though this project (and I) have cred simply because of the association with the giants in education.
A huge part of me is terrified for it all to end.  But.....

Another part of me is very excited to see what's to come.
What's next on this journey?
Where am I headed?
Where will I lead others?
Where will they lead me?